I’m just gonna come out with this now, early, so I can talk about it all I please in the future. Secrecy is soul-death after all, and I’ve spent too much of my life hiding things. This is my blog, anyway.
So here goes:
I’ve got two guides.
At least, I talk to two guides. Hell if I know how many are actually out there. Spirits come and go all the time, usually just when I need them most. Some aim to love, some aim to laugh, others to appreciate or create or vicariously experience – but they all seem to “vibrate” in the same way. Perhaps to match my own vibration. As in the physical realm, it seems you attract the sorts of “people” you relate to. But these spirits are less like me most of the time, and more what I could be. And it can be a real shock, glimpsing the potential you could grow into. Beings of pure love, beings of unfathomable inspiration. I mean, yes please.
But back to my main two guides – if that’s even what they are. My relationship with them seems to go both ways; I’ve done them just as many favors as they’ve done me. I see them more as friends, as brothers, as helpers. While my awareness of one of them dates back to my early 20’s, I certainly couldn’t communicate with him, nor understand that he was a legitimate, separate entity until just a couple years ago (I thank Access Bars for this surge of clarity). The second showed up some months later, specifically looking for the other one.
By that point, I’d been acutely aware of multiple encounters with spirits, etheric creatures and ghosts. There’s no telling how often I’d unknowingly dealt with such things in the past – it’s the awareness that matters. The consciousness and acceptance of the spirit realm as an interactive and accessible component of life is the only way to know what these beings want. What they’re trying to say. What the hell they’re even doing.
Spirit #1 (let’s call him “O”) has come – after a few tests, deals and ordeals – to align himself as my healing partner. I imagine most practitioners have at least one. I’ve spent plenty of time in the Peruvian Amazon, among shamans that I’m sure had similar partners – I just couldn’t sense them yet. Now I find them in the US, attached to acupuncturists and masseuses. By and large, I doubt these people know they’ve got etheric tag-alongs, but it makes little difference to their invisible co-workers. These beings have a job to do. A divine task. A lesson of their own to learn. With the exception of a few special (read: angelic) nurses, I haven’t felt many entities aligning with conventional practitioners – but I’ve also never had surgery. If a surgeon didn’t have such a spirit, I don’t think they could even do their job! As far as I can tell, these beings act on the energetic planes, while their material “associates” act on the body. And they all seem rather reserved and serious. O is no different. He keeps me on track. He makes sure I do things with care and precision, the very best I can. In exchange, I help him acclimate to the physical realm.
Sound like a weird deal? It is. But it’s also as old as time.
Spirit #2 (let’s call him “J”) likes to act as my social “wingman.” He constructs situations, connects people, and generally brings me the encounters I need or desire. Sometimes I put in requests, but mostly he goes behind my back – then boasts about his accomplishments after the fact. I don’t think he’s doing this for me, though. While there’s plenty of love between us (to be fair, he’s basically nothing but love), I still get the feeling that he’s only here because of O, and if O left, he’d leave as well.
I feel these spirits almost entirely in my heart. If I have to put physical limits on the sensations they bring, I’d liken it to a swelling of love, blended with color (blue for O, gold for J), and a sense of ease and flow that makes their communications come in like intuitive “hits.” Sometimes there are distinct words to this, a la clairaudience, but mostly its just a series of feelings, a deep and reassuring sense of certainty, a correctness, a yes-ness, accompanying epiphanies that aren’t epiphanies at all – they’re messages. When my guides show up, I feel loved and held and safe in a way embodied folks just can’t pull of. Their personalities are distinct – like flavors or temperatures felt much like a soothing blanket wrapped around my aura. O is cooler, quieter. J beams forth with unbridled enthusiasm and a flair for the romantic.
I know them with the same subtle senses I use to know where someone is hurting or blocked, or how I might be able to help. The same tingling, magnetic vibrations tell me whether my healing efforts are effective, or lacking, or even welcome. My offerings would be far less useful if I didn’t trust that. It’s not just my sanity that’s on the line in denying my awareness, but my capacity for empathy, my ability to connect, and my reputation as a healer. They’re all dependent on me making peace with the fact that I’m weird.
This awareness dominates my life, but I can’t talk about it with the vast majority of Americans. And even in more accepting environments, this “lifestyle” requires a level of isolation and quiet. There’s a reason hermits and witches withdraw into the woods. There’s a reason monks cloister away and make vows of silence. There’s a reason vision quests are undertaken alone.
There’s also a reason you might feel a pang of suspicion when someone projects their personal spirituality too loud – by manipulating with it, building a cultish following, or insisting that others believe as they do. When personal belief adopts a hierarchy, when its used for power or judgment or dominance, it’s only natural to be turned off. That’s intuition ringing the alarm. It’s a sign of a healthy third eye. Because no matter what one believes – even if it involves absolutely nothing beyond the physical – everyone has an inner compass that must be followed. We each have unique spiritual perceptions and values, even if they are void of spirit.
To force ourselves to adopt the views of another is to court madness, pure and simple.
I would know – I’ve spent my whole life trying to stamp out my own spirituality. I’m a joke in our culture, after all. No one takes the chick who talks to spirits seriously. People like me feel the need to hide, just as many atheists feel the need to fight, often having been damaged by religious dogma. Still others feel the need to rejoice, high on finding meaning and purpose and direction in God (or what have you). But in essence, there is nothing wrong with privacy, conviction, or jubilation. The trouble begins with overstepping boundaries – pushing what you believe on others, or allowing the views of others to warp your own natural perceptions. Reality is a precious thing – you don’t want to lose it. I’ve been there. It’s not pretty. Our inborn perceptions need to be honored and protected – to hell with anyone who would tell you otherwise.
So how do we keep our vision clear? How do we remain sure of our values and perceptions in a world overwhelmed by “fake news” and conflicting perspectives? How do we maintain confidence in our true awareness when others have made it wrong? How do we ground ourselves in the realm of ideas and ether – a realm with no ground to speak of?
To quote my four year-old: “We’ll just see with our other other eye!”
And to quote Anodea Judith’s Wheels of Life:
Third Eye
If we consider that a large percentage of our information comes to us in visual form, and that visual information is perceived as patterns of color, the subtle changes in frequency exhibited by light must have an enormous affect upon our minds and bodies.
If sound waves affect the physical arrangement of subtle energy, it would follow that color, being such a high octave of material manifestation, could influence matter in much the same way. For this reason, color has been used in healing, with remarkable success.
We can choose colors that complement the chakras we feel are the weakest. For a long time, I was aware of an absence of yellow in my auric field, which was confirmed by many friends and psychics who looked at me. Simultaneously, I had metabolic problems, and many issues related to the third chakra, such as low energy and feelings of powerlessness. I found that wearing a yellow gemstone (topaz) and yellow clothing helped my attitude considerably, to the point where other people remarked about an improvement. On a subtle level, this brought balance into my personal energy system.
As impulses travel through the brain, the wavelike qualities create what we experience as perception and memory. These perceptions are stored as encoded wavefront frequencies in the brain and can be activated by an appropriate stimulus, triggering the original wave forms. This could explain why a familiar face brings up recognition, even though that face may look different from the last time you saw it. It may explain why mention of roses brings to mind a particular smell, and why snakes generate fear even when there is no particular threat.
Our perception of the world around us seems to be a reconstruction of a neural hologram within the brain. This applies to language, thought, and all the senses as well as to the perception of visual information. In the words of neuroscientist Karl Pribram: “Mind isn’t located in a place. What we have is a holograph-like machinery that turns out images, which we perceive as existing somewhere outside the machinery.”
If both inner and outer worlds appear to function holographically, then the question must be asked: Is there any difference between them? Are we, ourselves, also holograms? As we slowly dissolve our self-created ego boundaries and embrace more universal states of being, are we merging our consciousness with a greater hologram? If each piece of the hologram contains information about the whole, though less clearly, is that why we gain clarity each time a new piece of information fits into the puzzle? As we grow and expand our understanding, do we not see things more and more as one interpenetrating web of energies, one picture?
It is not really our eyes that see, but our minds. The eyes are merely focal lenses for transcribing information from the outer world to the inner. The brain does not actually receive photons of light, but rather encoded electrical impulses. It’s up to the mind/brain to interpret these into meaningful patterns. This is a learned ability. In persons blind from birth whose sight is later restored by surgery, it is found that their first perceptions are only of light and they must struggle to learn to make meaningful images of this perception.
We also must remember that it is not matter we perceive, but light. When we look at the world around us, we think that we can see objects, but what we are really seeing is the light reflected by these objects – we see what they are not, we see the spaces between them, the spaces around them, but we cannot see into the actual objects. If we see red, then the object absorbs all frequencies except red light. We confirm its presence by touch – but our hand moves through the empty space. It too cannot feel the object. What it feels is the textured boundaries of the empty space. From this perspective, matter can be seen as a kind of no man’s land – a world we cannot enter except perhaps in very thin slices – penetrable by light under a microscope, or through glass and crystals. We experience our world through a dimension of empty space.
To see implies a far deeper perception than to look – as exemplified by Don Juan in the Carlos Castaneda series. When Don Juan looked at his dying brother, he was deeply grieved, but when he instead changed his mode to seeing, he understood the greater process involved and could learn from it.
The most significant aspect of consciousness at the level of the sixth chakra is the development of psychic abilities. While psychic perception is not always visual, as in clairaudience (from chakra five), or clairsentience (chakra two), the timelessness of clairvoyant information allows it to encompass a greater scope than any psychic abilities discussed so far.
The process of clairvoyance is one of specified visualization. It is a matter of systematically being able to call up relevant information on demand, regardless of whether it had been previously known. Our minds are using a self-made reference beam in the form of a question, to retrieve previously unknown data from the holographic memory bank. For instance, you may ask yourself to look at the area around someone’s heart chakra with a specific question that needs answering, such as something about their health or relationship. That question becomes the reference beam that “lights up” that particular piece of information in the holographic pattern.
Few people believe they can see something outside ordinary knowing, something they haven’t literally seen or been told. There is no permission to have that information and no current explanation for it, so most people don’t even bother to look for it. In order to see something, one needs to know where and how to look. We look for things in places where they are likely to be. We need not have put them there ourselves – we need only understand the basic order in which those things occur.
We are not limited to the slides we have “holographed” ourselves. If the holographic model has any validity, then we have access to an infinity of images, each created by an infinity of brain wave patterns. We need only call it up by finding the correct “reference beam.”
The process begins with learning to notice what you already see. This is heightened by validation of subtleties. The best way to obtain legitimate validation is to ask! The more we test our perceptions, the more we learn about our abilities and the more we can trust our strong points and develop our weak ones. In a world so bombarded with physical visual stimuli, and so ignorant of the internal images, validation is crucial.
In searching for validation, it is also important to realize that it’s OK to be wrong – at least while learning. Being wrong doesn’t mean that it is impossible, or that you have no psychic ability. Instead, use that feedback to refine the seeing: look over what you thought you saw; search for the grain of truth; see if you can find some correlation in your mind’s eye to the objective information you’ve been given. Unless you are purely shooting in the dark, there is usually some grain of truth to all honest perceptions.
Clairvoyance, then, is a matter of seeing the inner relationships of things – the fitting of the part into the whole. It is done by searching for the cross-point, or interference pattern between our question (the reference beam) and the piece of information that best fits the space we have created for it. The potency of the image that clicks into place sets it apart from the infinite number of other possible answers. Through meditation, visualization, and training, we can develop our abilities to perceive the subtle difference between the information we request and the countless other possibilities.
